ahh. im so slow. today i jst found out smth abt BND. smth really duh.

but anw. tdy ws SUCKY. lessons ended at 530!!!!! i cant believe i jst went through tht..and we had the worst pe evr today. though it ws qt fun. bt i shall choose to pretend i hated it. had to like, bend in an awkward postion w legs wide open across the sides to HOP from the beginning of ths GROSSGROSSGROSS canal or longkang or whtever to the end! and it got increasingly smaller. and im claustrophobic!! wnted to die. and thr was like, god knows wht in thr. millipedes and SPIDERS. omg..!! we emerged w lots of Very hardened cobwebs in our hair. thts how bad it was. and the tunnel/canal/longkang thingy ws so freaking dark!! if nt for amanda's hand i woulda gotten lost..were screaming like nuts in tht compact area..when we saw tht ray of light and lush greenery frm afar we were like WE'RE REACHING WE'RE REACHING!! sheesh. and thr ws more military pe ltr on..too lazy to elaborate. haha. it sounds so OMG bt it ws actually kinda fun. hahah. i know. madness.

anw. i guess today i saw some..stuff in my clsmates tht i havent seen since day2 when orientation with them began. so :) still trying, but really glad to say things are getting better.

steph i dont care YOU BETTER SHOW ME THE LETTER!! nth will be too depressing dear. i went through my downestestest nt long ago..so nth can be too negative for me. haha. and jst ystd i ws really hurt and all :( omg. are you sure..you cant eat 2.5kg of crackers! crackers are like, light as feather! aiyah you and your exaggerations..ive been eating a lot of chocolate too. and all my money is spent on like, eating. serious. and printing ridiculous chinese AO notes la. they dnt care whether we pass hchi for prelims, they still want us to take till our o levels results are out! wht rubbish right! so annoyed!! oh yeah you got my letter right? the old one tht i sent last year..sigh. the times when we were still unknowingly happy and contented in our comfy zone. before we were prey to the uncertainties of another new world. damn, yknw oliver james kps making me cry..!!? like so weird, one minute listening to the song and singing along then suddnly start crying. madness. I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT ST NICKS. i dont evn mind st johns la pls. much less your band. haha anw youre in kayaking nw?!?! i kayaked last time for st johns and it ws SO tiring. omg. i dno abt vj bt cj canoeing is lyk damn damn damn tough..!! like a thousand times worse thn my pe tdy. (read above!! seriously sucks. my legs were gna give way. half an hour in tht freaking stinky canal w spiders hanging over our heads or centipedes crawling abt we wont knw anw cos it ws pitch black..and my legs were like, in half split position throughout hopping and hopping, trying to get out. othr clses were playing captain's ball happily on the nice green flat field.) anw why you nvr join dance? always thought you could dance well. bt haha fit is good!! :D bt you really hv to let it go and try to adapt..its only less thn 2 mths left..you still hv shuqi and kermin and everyth..you still hv me!! i used to dwell A LOT, thinking hw inferior ths ws to st nicks and hw my state ws beyond pathetic and i'd go to school really really upset and crying everyday ALONE..yeah so sad right. i'd miss tings a lot. really a lot la. nvr felt ths way before. bt everyone tld me only i determine the situation im in..and after i tried talking to them and opening up, things started getting better. really! i used to think everyone ws weird and tht theyre all so different frm the friends i had but after a while i realised maybe they thought i ws weird cos i ws the only one w tht long face and mouth kpt shut every day. jst try to make the best out of the situations and accept the way things hv turned out to be..and nw practically everyone is ok! theyre really nice. of course there are v argh times bt i guess its part and parcel..dnt nd to hv really close friends la..jst get along and all. ok bt i guess i really dnt hv the right to tell you to try to adapt and whtever like i tried to cos your situation might be different frm mine..dnt be too upset k..lots of ppl love you silly girl. yeah havnt heard frm you for a week+!!!!!!! thought youre qt happy alr. sigh. really hope you'd be alright..cos i ws reallyreallyreally upset too. no matter what yknw im only a call/msg away..i'll always be thr for you, to catch you when you fall! ths is lyk so michelle branch. bt anw catch up soon!!!!! i miss you too!!! a lot!!!! bt you always stp msging aft a while :( ooh its ryan cabrera nw. sigh. reminisce the days whn we'd go your house during the hols and laze around. mm. anw ok ths weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! promise :)